I'm bringing Xanga back - drop a comment if you're with me!

Lately i have been in love with hannah, though im not sure if she loves me in the same way. im sure she does but im getting paranoid lately and i cant help it. I mean, she makes new friends every week on the bus and im really happy that she is, im just unbelievably scared that she is going to find someone better than me and want to go out with them instead. and if that happens my life can be considered as over. Ive waited since summer in 2004 to date her and now ive finally got my chance. Today i talked to her on the phone, and she hung up before i could tell her that i loved her. im so scared that im going to loose her, and i really dont want to. Ive dated girls before, but hannah is different, i actually feel really close to hannah unlike anyone else before. I love her so much from the bottom of my heart. I just dont want to loose her, ever. Truthfully i want to last my entire life with hannah because i believe she is the special person ive so wanted all my life. if she reads this im probably screwed, but i dont care, lol. I need people to know how i feel. if this stays bottled up inside me, im going to choke. I dont know why but im crying now because im so so scared. Hannah if you ever read this, i love you more than anything on this entire planet. please dont ever let me go...

Well, another nail was put in my coffin today, the girl I wanted to go out with got back together with her bf. And I honestly thought that life was finally looking up for me. That I was finally going to get a chance to be with the girl whom i have loved for almost a year. But alas, it was not ment to be

Now you people can finally understand why I have said to you so many times "I can never know Happiness